Monday, December 10, 2012
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
iii. Singing Cheap Trick’s I Want You To Want Me simply because I felt like being a rock star at 4AM. :D
iv. Understanding why I love The Cure’s Just Like Heaven, In Between Days, & Friday, I’m In Love, so freaking much.
v. Making me laugh hard enough to shed tears and hold my ribs in pain. :)
vi. Being able to understand me when I’m jibberjabbering away about things that don’t even make sense.
vii. Understanding my sarcasm, and being able to argue/tease me back.
viii. Being considerate and polite to everyone.
Sunday, August 15, 2010
You see.. the thing about ending long term relationships (or actually, any serious relationship I guess) is that it haunts you. It mocks you actually, hahaha. Everything you do, everything you see, everything you hear, reminds you of what you once had. You look at other couples, you watch movies, you hear songs, etc. and you think 'hey, that's how we use to be.' And it's like a fucking never ending cycle. Once you start thinking about what once was, you think of all the good times, of all the bad times, and how you got together, and worst, how you ended. And all those memories, all those feelings, pain, happiness, regret, longing, it all crashes onto you at once. And than you have that moment. That damn moment of being vulnerable, being weak, being
god damn alone. All those weeks spent emotionally and mentally strengthening yourself, and now, there's a crack in the wall you built up.
Now, I'm not saying I need a guy to make me happy. No, far from it. I AM able to find my own happiness. The difference is, there's happiness you discover and feel on your own. And then, there's the happiness you share with someone special. Someone you care about deeply. Yes yes, I have that with my friends. But what I mean, is THAT someone special yadigg? Something only the two of us can feel and understand. Where happiness wasn't your favorite flavor of ice cream or your favorite comedy movie or some other materialistic thing, it was just the simple feeling of being with someone else, who felt as content as you. And as corny as that may sound, that's how we were. And .. that's how I hope we will be.
/end Up induced rant, LOL.
II. It’s not that I don’t trust you, quite the opposite. It’s just I don’t want you to get involved/hurt.
III. I know I tease you a lot and that I rarely compliment you for your achievements. And when I do, I’m sarcastic about it, but I really, truly, am proud of you. I know you’ll do great things in the future.
IV. You need me alot more than I need you. Stop it. I need space sometimes, a lot more than you.
V. I wish you would realized that you have so much more potential than just being the typical straight A-sian student.
VI. Stop fucking complaining. Don’t call ME fucking spoiled when you don’t do shit for anyone but yourself. And when you do things for others, you either only do it in return for something else, or you do it just to make yourself look better for someone else.
VII. Learn some social manners. The way you treat other people and your own family is annoying/infuriating as fuck.
VIII. I know you think how you tease me is cute and funny .. but it’s not. It’s annoying as fuck. There are days/weeks that go by, that I don’t even physically talk to you or look at you when you talk to me. And you still don’t get how much you annoy me sometimes? The only reason I don’t completely outright ignore you, is outta respect for her and manners.
IX. I know where I wanna go. And I know I can go. I just wish you would just let me go.
X. Somewhere along the line of always trying to make you happy, I realized I don’t know how to make myself happy anymore.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession.
And I'll actually finish this one, hahahaha.
Sunday, July 11, 2010
But anyways, like I said earlier my name’s Tu-Tram. Annnd I have about 2348320943 nicknames. Hm, I currently reside in SoCal but I was born in Vietnam and raised in LA. I’m currently registered to attend PCC in the Fall instead of Cal Poly SLO due to our lovely recession, but hey. An education’s still an education regardless of where it is right? Who gives a fuckk about reputation after you graduate and move on right?! Hahaha, SMD ! And anyways, its about what you take in, not where you go. -shrugs- But yess, I’m planning on majoring in Psychology or Business/Criminal Law, and then after I’m done at PCC, transfer to UCLA/SB/SD ! Andd then maybe take the LSAT after I’m done with my undergrads? haha, we’ll see how that turns out I guess. But mm, my ultimate dream job would be opening up a small cafe/bakery. :] Cause I honestly love cooking, specifically baking. For me, it’s just so enjoyable when I’m able to for example, bake some brownies, andd have all my friends love it. :) It’s nice seeing someone enjoy something YOU made yourself with your own hands, time, and effort you know? And secondly, it’s also cause I lovee love love food hehe. I mean, who doesn’t? Honestly, sometimes the highlights of my days are just me cooking breakfast for my friends, or dinner for my family. And then being able to enjoy it afterward, haha.
Yepyep, annd what else .. Oh yeah. Haha, and besides cooking, I’m a huge audiophile. Music is huge to me annd I’m pretty sure it is to everyone else but -shrugs- haha. I can’t remember how many times I got in trouble during middle school for listening to my MP3 (cause we weren’t allowed to use phones/mp3’s) haha. But it was still worth it for me, every second of it heh. Not to sound cliche or anyway, but it really is food for the soul haha. Like I love hearing a song that reminds me of my life, or just evoke a certain emotion within me and whatnot. I love being able to listen to a song, and be able to understand the artist’s message and really just let it flow through me. Hahaha, cause I’m sure we’ve all heard songs that literally caused us to just get goosebumps and shiver right? I love that feeling haha. Mm and yeah. I listen(ed) to just about every genre there is. Indie, alternative, rap, hiphop, jazz, classical, and hell even metal, although that didn’t last very long. LOL. But I’m usually open to every type of music. :) And anyways, I think genre’s are just sorta like .. a physical thing you know? Haha, it’s not really necessary. Cause once you strip it of its genre/classification, it’s still just music and that’s all that matters.
But yeah, I don’t know what else to say. Haha, I’m a pretty boring/simple person. -shrugs- I really am a lowkey/laidback kinda girl. Doesn’t take much to make me happy. Whether it’s simply just walking around the park with a friend or going to a party, I’ll still enjoy my time regardless haha. But in all honestly, I would choose the walk over a party anytime, hehe. There are literally days where I’ve spent with my friends sitting in each others’ car/roof/trunk watching the sunrise/set and just bumping some feel good jams and talking. And honestly, those were some of the best days of my life haha. I’m sure you guys can relate. :) And bumbumbum, not gonna lie, I tend to be superrrrr sarcastic sometimes, but you’ll live. Haha, if you can’t deal with sarcasm .. it just wasn’t meant to be then. I’m sorry. ): Heh, and I’m super realistic haha. Don’t ask me to make wishes at 11:11 and all that shit haha. Annd hmm, not gonna lie. I do tend to judge people -shrugs- who honestly doesn’t? But it doesn’t matter, cause IT doesn’t matter. It’s just a way for me to sorta figure you out, and maybe I’m wrong maybe I’m right. But who gives a fuck? You’re your own person and I’ll still accept you for who YOU are regardless. Cause I could care less what you do, as long as I know you’re genuinely a good soul with your head set straight, then that’s all that matters to me. :)
Soooo yeah! I started ranting and wrote a bitttt more than I originally planned to but oh well haha. It’s been a while since I wrote anything so -shrugs- haha. But hey, if you read all that crap^, kudos to you. I’ll send you a cookie. :) Homemadee! :D Haahaha. It’s almost 2AM and soo I should head off. Adioss !